Sunday, September 21, 2008

Thoughts on marriage

I have been thinking more about my single life lately. I love it! I believe I am one of the most blessed women on the planet. Yet within the past few months I have recognized a new dissatisfaction and desire something more. I live a very full life, never lacking in friends of both genders to spend time with. I am so blessed with precious friends that I often feel I am neglecting them because there just are not enough days in the week for me to spend with each the quality time and joys of life that I desire to share with them.

I am as busy socially as I want to be, but recently I have found myself in an unfamiliar state of discontent with my relationship status. I have gone on a few friendly dates in the past few months and have had a taste of how precious a respected and Godly male companion is. There is within me a flame of hope, growing steadily, for someone to love for a lifetime and share every moment of my future with.

I prayed today for a husband for the first time in perhaps a decade.

Verbalizing my desire for a husband to God made me feel vulnerable and unsettled, but there is a joy in recognizing and putting out there the desire God has given me to share my live of love and service to Him with a man who has the same focus. Should God choose to bless me with with marriage-I will be ecstatic--but I know that He is my Lover and will sustain me with His companionship and love through another decade or two of singleness is that is the path He has for me.

Be careful for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7