Intensity
My work at the hospital has been really intense lately. More than ever, as I prepare for work, I take deep breaths and pray for grace to handle the situations in which I will find myself on the hospital floor.
We have lost a couple of patients in the past month, but saved some others. I'm reminded often that God determines the number of our days. It is a privilege to be working with His children. The deaths have been difficult for me, especially because the patients were very young. In my emotional journey with death here in the states, I realize how ill equipped I currently am for the frequency with which I will face the death of my patients in Africa.
I have much growth to do, though I do not lie to myself and think that I will ever be fully grown.